Hello to everyone! It's been a while since I've written, but in this time God has revealed much. There is a song that I love that says, "Watch what my God can do, Watch what my God can do for you; You may face some situations, some trials or tribulations, but, watch what my God can do." I love this song and I especially love the BUT in the middle because yes, we may face trials and tribulations and difficult situations BUT just watch and wait and see what God's gonna do about it. I think the last time I wrote I had been given the wonderful news that my estrogen level was finally where it needed to be. It was 7 and that was, and is, great news. But I'd like to share how God revealed the whole story of this situation for me. He didn't do it the first moment I heard my level was a 7. He waited until just the right moment on just the right day at just the right time so that I would be able to fully comprehend the magnitude of His power. Let me share.
First, let me share that the number 7 biblically means "perfection" or "completion". The number 8 biblically means "new beginnings". Eight is 7+1, which means completion plus one, or a new beginning. When God destroyed the earth by flood, eight people stepped off the arc to create a new beginning of a new world. There are many examples in the Bible, but these are two that help me understand what God revealed to me.
When any kind of blood work or testing is done for me, it goes to all of my doctors to keep them updated on my journey. So we were on vacation when the first 7 came in. In case you don't know, my estrogen levels are supposed to be 32 or below, but my levels were coming in between 78 and 179. So to get this 7 was amazing and wonderful! When my doctor called we were on top of a mountain on vacation and to receive a perfect 7 on top of the mountain was an extraordinary feeling. But what I want to share is what God revealed to me later that not only confirmed His presence, but also gave me a peace and an understanding of healing deep within my soul.
We got home from vacation and had a bill in the mail from my oncologist that reminded me that his office, in addition to my surgeon's office, had drawn my blood for an estrogen level. I had forgotten my oncologist drew blood for a level. Then it all came together for me because this is what God showed me. I received the 88 while sitting in the valley of the mountains. I didn't know then that God was actually telling me I was about to experience a new beginning. Unbeknownst to me, He was preparing my heart for the perfect, complete 7 that I was about to receive up on that beautiful mountaintop. So see, God gave me a new beginning in the valley and then waited for me to reach the top of the mountain before receiving the perfect 7! It was such an amazing moment to realize just how God was in control of this whole thing. I am learning every day that our lives are planned right down to the last detail. This revelation astounded me, that God would reveal this in such a way as this. What's more, and most astonishing is the undeniable gift of knowing I had been healed that God gave me in that moment. I felt such a warm, quiet peace fall over me. It was like a gentle wind that blows outside that we might not notice if we don't stand still long enough to feel it. I felt it from my head to my toes. I praise Him for this gift and for this feeling of His presence and for His healing and for His peace that truly does surpass all understanding.
Last week, my doctor wanted to do another level to "be sure". I just knew there was no need for it. When God speaks and you truly hear Him there is no room left for doubt and fear. But I obliged and had my blood drawn again. Here's what happened. There are two different hormones they check for estrogen to combine and make up a total. The first time one hormone was 1 and one was 6 for a total of 7. This time - now wait for it and get ready - one hormone was 2 and the other was 5 for another total of 7. There's no need to check it again, but I just know that next time it would be another combination to equal 7. Hallelujah! This can only be God and I am so thankful that He not only did this, but He also revealed it to me in this way.
I talk a lot about the valleys and mountains and deserts that I've faced through this journey and I think it is so amazing that He would use the valley and the mountain to reveal such healing to me. It makes me realize that God cares about every single thing that we face, from something big to something small. I also realized that God takes great pleasure in our happiness. He didn't have to make all these pieces fall into place for me this way, but He did. And I really believe that when I got it - when I really, really got it, He was smiling because He knew I recognized the gift. I love Him and I praise Him for all that He is and does. I want to shout from the rooftops and run down the streets and tell of Jesus and His love and sacrifice. His presence is always beside us. His angels are always around us. I could never praise Him and thank Him enough for all that He does, but I will try. The very best way I can describe how I feel and how I know I'm healed is to say that He touched me, He healed me, He gave me confirmation and it is well with my soul.
I love you all,
Kacey
