During the last year in my battle with breast cancer, I asked God almost daily to send His Holy Spirit and speak to me, show me signs of His glory and presence, manifest Himself to me in ways where I would be blown away. He did it! A lot!! God snowed on my car...and only on my car for just a few seconds. He answered my prayer of no drain after surgery...then He went on to let me tell the nurses I wasn't going to have one only to have them smile, pat my arm, and say "okay, honey". The amazement in their eyes was wonderful when I woke up! He showed me a sky one morning that I cannot put into words. All I can say is that I have never seen a sky like that before, nor have I seen one like it again. These are just a few examples of the things God has shown me. He has shown me what I like to call "Godincidences" through my entire walk.
But this week I started wondering why I hadn't been experiencing these things lately. I asked God one morning about this and immediately was reminded "you have not because you ask not". Okay, God, I hear you! I really began to reflect on this, and it was true, I had stopped asking to hear and see and feel the presence of God as much as I had before. So I began praying again, asking God to let His Holy Spirit show me things. I was hungry and thirsty for the presence of God. I debated and prayed over whether or not to share this with you, but after almost a week, I feel that I must.
Last Saturday morning I was in the shower. Alan was gone and the boys were upstairs playing. Our shower door is frosted so you can't really see through it, but as I was standing under the hot water, enjoying my long, hot shower, I suddenly felt like someone was in the room. I turned and looked out the door and saw what appeared to be a person come through the room and go into our closet. It was white and I felt as though I even heard footsteps. Alan had worn a white shirt that day, and I was amazed that he had gone to the store so quickly; so I laughed, called out his name, and said as much to him about his timing. I got no answer. It's not unusual that he wouldn't hear me :) so I repeated myself. I got no answer. Then I began to wonder what had happened. I was so sure than I saw and heard someone that I just began calling his name. Nothing. Alan wasn't home yet. The boys were still upstairs playing. I believe with all my heart that an angel passed through the room that day! I saw the white through the door...I heard the footsteps. As I began to realize what God had done, I'll be honest and say that I was in disbelief. But then I realized that this is what I had been asking for all week. I had also been telling God that I was an open vessel...that I wanted to be used in such a way to share His work and His presence. He did it, and that is why I felt I must share it!! When I finally began to comprehend what had happened and truly, fully accept it, I felt a warmth and presence in that room with me that was so strong. It was almost as if I lost all sense of everything around me and was able to share just a moment alone with an angel. It was fast, but amazing, and the after effects have been very long-lasting! You have not because you ask not...that kept running through my mind. There is nothing that God can't do. He just wants us to be open and willing to receive whatever it is He wants to give us. And He wants to give us everything...after all, He gave up His only son for us!
So, there it is...I've shared, and I saw an angel! It was beautiful. It was white. It's presence was peaceful. It made me smile and laugh and drew me right to God. It was a magnificent experience, and one that gives me peace every day to know that God surrounds us with His angels to watch over us and protect us. He really does it...I saw it! God tells us to be careful....we might just be entertaining angels unaware!
I love you all,
Kacey
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